The end of and era... sort of

So I have my last day at work tomorrow and this is the first place ever I have worked at that I'm actually sad to leave. I love my job, I love the responsibility and learning something new every day. I love working with science and I especially love working with all the nice people there. But thats it for know, can't work there forever without a real employment so now is the time to move on. At least for a while, have a summer job there in a couple of months so looking forward to that. And hopefully I can start schooling in August and get a internship there when I'm done. My boss has actually promised me one already and the schooling takes two year's, so guess I did something right. Kinda sad, kinda nervous, kinda happy and kinda scared. But a vacation sounds good and now I can get ready to move.

A great quote

This might be one of the funniest and wisest men ever. I love his books.

"I meant," said Ipslore bitterly, "what is there in this world that truly makes living worthwhile?"
Death thought about it.
"Cats," he said eventually. "Cats are nice."

Terry Pratchett, Sourcery

For more good and funny quotes by Terry Pratchett go here. I strongly recommend it.

Just another manic monday..

Had an appointment whit my work counselor today and still can't figure out what she said. which means I'm even more terrified of moving now then I were a week ago, and I didn't think it was possible. I actually thought at one point it couldn't get worse than this but guess what, it did. My heart have been raising all day and I feel constantly sick and dizzy. If it weren't for the fact that its impossible I would take a pregnancy test. But I haven't backed out yet, still planning on moving. Don't know when ore where but I'm moving and that's that. People who know me know that if I have my heart set on something it's impossible to change my mind. And in this case I think that is in my favor. Just need to figure out some stuff and then brave new world, here I come.

Warning, emo kid coming you're way

So I'm trying to move, and yeah trying is the right word cause I'm not getting anywhere. My current job is ending in about a week and a half and in my mind I'm supposed to move right after that, but nothing is happening. I don't have a place to live ore bought a ticket, and I certainly haven't packed anything. I don't think my parents think I'm really moving, I'm not sure if I think I am. But I really want to. Just wish I knew if the others want to live with me, I know you said you want to but I don't know if I believe you. God I'm such a emo kid. Probably just need to buy a ticket and pack my bags and get down there. Grind my teeth and smile. I wish I had appreciated childhood more cause this is freaking difficult, ore I wish I had a childhood I could have appreciated. I keep thinking what is the worst that could happen, but can't come up with any answers. My mind is also going back to it's old ways instead of going forwards and I hate it, but have totally lost control over it. I'm just a visitor in my own body. Adulthood here I come.... hopefully.

The problem...

The only problem with having a blog your family and friends know about is that when your life is shitty and your heart is breaking you can't write about it and scream it out cause then everybody gets concerned and you feel guilty. Sigh, I feel like crying but I can't and I can't wait until I can, cause that means I'm getting better.

Another year, a whole new feeling

Dett var dett, og enda ett år har pasert. Mitt 21. i rekken og det beste til nå. Ikke misforstå her nå, det har vært et slit og et heflete for å si det sånn. Men det har vært verdt det. Nå er jeg en mer stødig person, mer utadvent og generlt sett lykkeligere. Noe som kan enkelt forklares og oppsumeres slik

• Januar: ADHD diagnose og start på Ritalin medisinering.
• Februar: Start på min første skikkelige jobb, mye ansvar og mange folk som stoler på meg. (hjelper endel att de konstant skryter av meg og ;P )
• April: Asperger Syndrom diagnose. (og inseelse att det var ikke min feil)
• Juli: Innvilgelse av attføringspenger slik att jeg kan leve uten støtte av mine foreldre.
• November: Bestemt meg for å flytte til Asker for å bo i lag med noen venner når jeg er ferdig med nåverende jobb (er ferdig i slutten av Januar)
• Desember: Sjefen min ber meg pent om å fortsette å jobbe for dem fordeom prosjektet mitt er ferdig, de har alltids en jobb til meg en plass. Jeg sa takk men nei takk, men får sommerjobb der:) Har i tillegg bestemt meg for å ta Røkter utdannelse, og dermed begynne på videregående igjenn til høsten.

Det har altså vært litt av ett år, og jeg er ganske stolt av å komme ut av det i bedre psykisk form en noensinne. Noe som igjen gjør at jeg har en bedre fysisk form på veldig lenge
Har nok langt igjen å gå på både den psykiske og fysiske delen, men nå er jeg i det minste klar for å komme meg videre i livet. And it was about freaking time too.